Showing posts with label blood. Show all posts
Showing posts with label blood. Show all posts

Saturday, 11 April 2020

PIHW 7 Holy Saturday in Holy Week - I know what I believe


A badly played electric organ (probably a desperate attempt by a parent to amuse a stir crazy child) wafted into the bathroom and started me thinking.  It was the tune that was being played that interested me, “Greensleeves” – not a particularly remarkable tune, but it seemed slightly odd to hear something so associated with my home country here in Castelldefels.   
     Of course, it is just a well-known tune, and something that electric organs could have pre-programmed inside them, but the ‘arrangement’ if it could be called that that accompanied the inexpertly played melody was anything but traditional or indeed pleasant.   
     My mind drifted to Henry VIII, the golden prince who became the monster king and the belief that he wrote the tune.  I knew that many experts have called such an attribution into question, but Henry VIII was the first thing I thought of when I heard the tune.   
     The belief that Henry wrote the tune is one of those bits of knowledge that you want to be true, like the equestrian statues: if the horse has all four legs on the ground the rider died in his bed; one foot up he died of wounds; two feet in the air and he (it’s usually a he isn’t it?) died in battle.  Not true, but you want it to be true.  At least I do.
     Anyway I played around with the idea of “Greensleeves” and Henry having written it for Ann Boleyn when he was trying to bed her, and linked it in my mind with the statistics that we are daily assailed by.  I have seen more graphs of deaths and infection for individual countries and comparing countries than I think is healthy.  They all look frightening and if they don’t we assume they are lies!
     “Greensleeves”! may not have been written by Henry VIII, and not for Ann Boleyn, but Ann Boleyn lived and died, she was executed by a single stroke of an imported French executioner’s sword.  That was real and true.
     The poem uses ideas of presentation and truth, it responds to the games that we play with evidence, but it ends with the reality of mortality, “And blood.”!

 

 

I know what I believe



Choose your axes; choose your scale;
the colours, thickness of your lines,
and you can show just what you want
and always claim that it is fact.
Mere figures are too bare, too bald –
you need a narrative to link the scraps
and make them fit for taking in.

Machine-like and anaemic sound,
incongruous, but quite distinct,
from way beyond the pine trees’ gloom,
and through the bathroom window’s dust
to me, and unmistakably, “Greensleeves”
picked out, unsteady, note by note,
above insistent electronic bass;
bastardized indeed, but still
a quintessential Englishness,
exotically, beside the Med.

The randy, monstrous, Tudor king
eying Wilshire’s daughter Ann,
a maid of honour to his queen,
tried to woo her with this song
the story goes. 
Fake News!
The style and evidence suggest
a later, and another reign.

But, tradition has it so,
and that, for most, is quite enough
without the inconvenient truth
to spoil that which we have been told.

A fairy tale? 

Well, all of us like fairy tales.

Perhaps.
But, there was a straightened neck;
an executioner’s sharp sword,
and a beheading at the end.
And blood.



Friday, 29 December 2017

Changing Room Scenery


The original idea for this poem came from an exchange of views about the use of the word 'bum' in another of my poems called 'Misophonia'.  The discussion caused me to cut the word and find another way to say what I originally said.  And there it might have ended, but for the fact that, every day I go to the local pool and complete my metric mile of 60 lengths of the pool and in changing in the communal changing room, I realised that I get to see a lot of bums!  I was also reminded of Bismark's comment that, "I have seen three emperors in their nakedness, and the sight was not inspiring."  To be frank, most men (going on my experience of changing rooms) are not improved by nakedness; most of us do not have the ability to remove clothing and become 'Nude' rather than just starkly naked!
     The following poem might have been kickstarted by my use of a vulgar word, but then I wondered, after seeing the bottom of the man in the poem, how many times and in what ways I could use the synonyms for rear-end in a piece of short writing.
     As you will see from the poem, the writing became something more and perhaps less than that.  Or just different.  Anyway, the poem is a response to general nakedness rather than a specific piece of flesh, though the detail is actual!
     I debated about this poem being something for general consumption, rather than a personal piece of writing attempting to write within verbal limits, but eventually, after a number of edits I felt that this was something which could benefit from wider circulation.
     In my blog Cardiff to Catalonia (Cardifftocatalonia.blogspot.com) I speculated about how much time I have spent in swimming pools and came to the conclusion that 2 seconds out of every minute of my life, waking and sleeping, is spent swimming!  This is a significant chunk, and it is therefore not surprising that a number of my poems are related in some way to the pool and my progress through it.  That being said, I aways hope that I manage to point to something beyond the everyday quality of the subject matter.
     I am sure that, even with the revisions that I have already made to the poem when it was first written, this is one of those pieces of writing which will nag at me and encourage further edits!






I have seen three emperors in their nakedness, and the sight was not inspiring. Otto von Bismarck
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I have seen three emperors in their nakedness, and the sight was not inspiring. Otto von Bismarck
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Changing Room Scenery




His face was nondescript,
his body masked inside unstructured clothes,
a short and stocky man.
I’m not much good at guessing years -
but well beyond the boyish stage.

His baggy shorts came off
and all his clothes,
to show a belly just a bit too big,
about to overhang.  And,
set against the front, the back:

a bubble butt, absurdly pert,
coquettish, almost feminine,
with faded, lightish-blue tattoos
cut in on either cheek.

His finest feature saved for
changing room inconsequence!
For uninvolved, indifferent male eyes!

But, all men look, you know.
We’re none of us so confident
comparisons can be ignored
without defensive thoughts.

How many squat thrusts
have to be endured
to mould such buns? 
And why?  For whom?
A tattooed arse! 
The remnant of a reckless youth?
Bravado?  Invitation?  Threat?

For some,
the body’s a construction site
where the unsettled architect
must form, and form again the
seagulls’ wings of mound and dip,
of blood and muscle, sinew, sweat -
to show that fullness and concavity
can say so little, and so much.


 




Tuesday, 8 March 2016

Blood

Ever since I was diagnosed with high blood pressure I have become used to baring my left arm and watching a succession of nurses fill test tubes with my blood, ready to go for analysis.  I am not squeamish about such things, that ended years ago when I was a blood donor and I asked where my blood was being collected as I was lying there with a tube in my arm.  A jolly nurse said, "In this bottle!" and she held up a glass bottle and swished my blood around so that I could see it more plainly.  It was a little shocking to see that much outside my body which should have been in the inside, but that was only for a moment and I have taken the various extractions with equanimity.
     The trouble comes when the analysis of those phials does not confirm rude health, but points out problems.  The blood tests then take on an entirely different complexion.
     It was a visit to the nurse in our local practice that concentrated my mind on a forthcoming blood test and this poem is the result.
     I would not want to give the wrong impression: I feel and am feeling fine and I think that the feeling at the end of the poem could be something about which we need to think at any time in our lives - not just when there is a looming blood test!





Blood




Red.

Startling.

                        It always

looks the same.  Each time
I see it fill a tube.  And
silent, telling nothing
to the naked eye, and yet
it’s eloquent enough to
fill a page with printed
numbers – some with asterisks.

That is the underside,
the hidden themes
within the garish
oxygen-puffed
corpuscles.

Which way the story goes,
to tragedy or comedy or farce,
is not yet settled.

Anti-climax is my choice:
a trite and tired soap,
where daily nothingness
leads unexceptionally
towards an easy,

distant, end!





I am beginning to think that there is a sort of 'look' to my poems that this one exemplifies: short, irregular stanzas with a few separated words and extra spaces with a reliance on the comma to keep the rhythm together!


Sunday, 6 December 2015

Lost

I am not sure if it is an affect of age, but I find myself thinking of what I cannot know of what I have experienced.  Those everyday realities that passed you by because you never realised that you ought to have considered them.  So many things about the people you care about are just like the oxygen you breathe, it is so ordinary you take it for granted.  Right up until it is taken away.
     When John Donne said, in one of his sermons, that he was diminished by each Man's death, he was absolutely right.  I am now at an age where my parents' generation is largely gone.  Not only their memories and the details of those memories are gone, but their memories about me too are gone with them.  I have written about this before in the poem, 'What dog was Rodney?' and it continues to fascinate me - and disturb me, because what is gone is gone.
     It was while I was thinking about the opening question in this poem that the form and the subject matter began to form itself.  The central incident was one where I was actually more concerned about the reaction of my mother to my dog Penny's injury than the reaction of the dog.  Who I have to admit, made the most of her 'baddy' with the sort of resigned fortitude that only yellow Labrador bitches can pull off with real style.  Penny also complicated the whole concept of memory by herself being fairly indiscriminate in which paw she offered for sympathy at a later date!
     The last stanza expresses something I do believe, or at least something which needs consideration.  I seem to make a distinction between 'maker' and 'scribe' and I write of 'just a narrative' which suggests a whole area of debate about 'writing' and some sort of truth which I rather pointedly do not develop.
     I really like the ending!




Lost





What is the nearest thing in your
Life Time that you can never know?
Those unrecorded facts for which
there is no witness left alive to testify?
Did grandfather Powell ever wear cologne?
What was grandmother Rees’s favourite book?

The metal post was on the right
of that long path that led up to the field.
No more than a few inches high.  I think
that it was used by Gramp to mark out space with
rough green twine for flowers or for veg and,
hardy perennial, was left from year to year
to help re-draw the ordered battle lines
between the cultivated and the weeds
that filled my grandfather’s non-working years.

Released from city life,
the dog bounded to unaccustomed green,
and in her flight, an edge of that small post
swept through her foot.

Her bundled, limping run back to us all,
within the echo of her almost human scream,
punched pain to nausea.
The garish red along the yellow of her fur
from flesh gash-gape drenching a paw so delicate
it could have been a charm; and so much blood
from what turned out to be a cut so small;
but deep enough, that when the fur grew back,
it didn’t coat the gristle that was left.

And then for all her life,
enquiries for her ‘baddy paw’
would cause a lean (to left or right?)
and she would proffer (left or right?)
and flinch it back from soft
attempted human touch
to play the game
of her remembered pain.

Now she’s contained within a history
that I re-write as maker and as scribe.
But in the interest of truth
I cannot bring myself to plump
for ‘right’ or ‘left’ – because my choice
would make her just a narrative,
and not my dog.





I must admit that I am surprised at how long this poem turned out to be.  I thought, when I started that this was going to be another of my sonnet-like efforts but, as you can see, it turned into something longer.  Whether it is more substantial I leave for the consideration of the reader.

Thursday, 16 April 2015

Some love

Although this was not really part of the prompt, this poem came from a freewrite as part of the evening with the Barcelona Poetry Group.
          I am not sure that this is going to be the final state of this poem, but I think that it does say something about missed opportunities, and what is lost through a sort of emotional cowardice!


Some love



Some love beats blood past
broken brain-bonds, through
intermittent jangling nerves
that jitter thought to finger tips –
which almost bridge; but stop,
before they realise
what they can’t take:

a touching, real and tangible
which tears chasms apart
and closes tightly-in together.


A short poem, but one which has some authentic emotion for me!